http://confetti00.livejournal.com/ confetti00 - LiveJournal.com Sun, 18 Jun 2006 00:11:28 GMT LiveJournal / LiveJournal.com confetti00 9247151 personal http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/40456188/9247151 http://confetti00.livejournal.com/ 62 100 http://confetti00.livejournal.com/3979.html Sun, 18 Jun 2006 00:11:28 GMT http://confetti00.livejournal.com/3979.html LOL nothing has changed. I still don't have THE job I want, and I'm still stuck in the cycle. http://confetti00.livejournal.com/3979.html public 0 http://confetti00.livejournal.com/3669.html Sun, 23 Apr 2006 18:24:40 GMT http://confetti00.livejournal.com/3669.html It's amazing how time goes by so fast. I never made the goal in my last post. I getting down on myself for several reasons, the weight (of course), I can't find a job, and Ive just been doubting myself lately about everything. I'm nervous about my immediate future, I know this is causing me to eat and be down on myself-be down on myself and eat-that horrid cycle. *long sigh* http://confetti00.livejournal.com/3669.html public 0 http://confetti00.livejournal.com/3347.html Mon, 10 Apr 2006 22:25:54 GMT http://confetti00.livejournal.com/3347.html So I'm fasting today, it feels good, I'm not hungry, I have a killer headache though. I have to eat something tonight at dinner to avoid suspicion, but I will not eat again tomorrow until I'm forced to at dinner. I've actually done the eating only once a day thing before and it worked nicely. so if I do that along with avoiding sugar, I should be LOVELY in no time. http://confetti00.livejournal.com/3347.html public 0 http://confetti00.livejournal.com/3306.html Fri, 07 Apr 2006 17:59:40 GMT http://confetti00.livejournal.com/3306.html Well I didn't make the goal I set in the last post, but I'm bloated at this time. I'm going to the gym like crazy and my eating has been not good, but controlled. So, same goal by Tuesday April 11. http://confetti00.livejournal.com/3306.html groggy public 1 http://confetti00.livejournal.com/2967.html Thu, 30 Mar 2006 18:40:33 GMT http://confetti00.livejournal.com/2967.html I'm so nervous about summer, I want to wear cute little clothes and my cute tiny bathing suit. 11lbs in 26 days. 11 pounds in Twenty-Six days. and I'll set a 4 pound loss for myself until next Thursday-it's "that time", so I will have to be careful anyway next week. http://confetti00.livejournal.com/2967.html determined public 1 http://confetti00.livejournal.com/2621.html Tue, 21 Mar 2006 17:34:34 GMT http://confetti00.livejournal.com/2621.html SO I gained 2 lbs on vacation, I had a really good workout 1 day during the vacation 2, I was proud of myself. Now back to the grind. I want to lose 10 lbs for short term-I'll give myself 5 weeks and ultimately lose 20lbs by Memorial Day. I already feel so much better, I need to remember how I love feeling small and a lot of people feel a superior feeling and I can identify with that, cause it's not easy and you should feel superior. http://confetti00.livejournal.com/2621.html public 2 http://confetti00.livejournal.com/2428.html Tue, 14 Mar 2006 03:37:44 GMT http://confetti00.livejournal.com/2428.html I don't think I'll make my four in four, I'm sick and don't feel like going to the gym, but I'm controlling my food intake as far a sugar I had toostie rolls 20g and soy milk 13g I don't know it thats good or not, I hope it's good. http://confetti00.livejournal.com/2428.html public 0 http://confetti00.livejournal.com/2220.html Sun, 12 Mar 2006 17:58:47 GMT http://confetti00.livejournal.com/2220.html So I am going to do the no sugar thing. I'm going to try to do it on vacation too. I'm really not a big sweet freak, the hardest thing will be my Mt Dew or French Vanilla Cappuccino (the kind from the machine)at work. I know I'll drink on vacation, but that will be the only sugar I'll allow myself. As for everything else.... I'm excited about vacation, I'm happy my hubby is coming home, I think I have a good handle on my class, but I'm not sure yet the grades have not been posted. My job is a joke the work is a joke, the money is a joke, but I can do my homework there and it is only temporary. I miss having friends and being a social butterfly. By May, I have some serious decisions to make concerning my career. And of course I need to lose weight, it effects my entire life. http://confetti00.livejournal.com/2220.html public 0 http://confetti00.livejournal.com/1832.html Sun, 12 Mar 2006 05:02:53 GMT http://confetti00.livejournal.com/1832.html Reading that last post of mine is weird, it's not me, but that's how I was feeling that day, I started drama w/ my husband and I broke my cell phone in two. I'm feeling much better now, I am going on vacation this week and I have lost a total of 11 pounds. I want to loose 4 more by Wednesday. That's 4 in 4 days. Vacation is going to be a challenge, but this weight was so hard to take off I just have to keep that in mind. The hotel we are staying in has a gym :) http://confetti00.livejournal.com/1832.html public 0 http://confetti00.livejournal.com/1626.html Fri, 24 Feb 2006 01:55:41 GMT http://confetti00.livejournal.com/1626.html My life sux, I can't do it, I can't lose weight. I'm so lonely, I hate my life. http://confetti00.livejournal.com/1626.html public 0 http://confetti00.livejournal.com/1435.html Tue, 21 Feb 2006 02:52:14 GMT http://confetti00.livejournal.com/1435.html I ate ALOT today (around 1400cals), I hope I'm just PMSing because I have felt so down the past 2 days. I am going to the gym this evening though. I plan to workout for about 2 hours. I will walk (jog if I have the energy) on the treadmill and do the elipitical. I have been losing so I'm scared to gain anything, it will discourage me. http://confetti00.livejournal.com/1435.html public 0 http://confetti00.livejournal.com/1129.html Sat, 18 Feb 2006 22:44:49 GMT http://confetti00.livejournal.com/1129.html Since Monday I've lost 3 pounds. http://confetti00.livejournal.com/1129.html public 0 http://confetti00.livejournal.com/991.html Thu, 16 Feb 2006 03:10:04 GMT http://confetti00.livejournal.com/991.html So -2 pounds since Monday that good. I went back Slim-fast.com where I was logging food/calories/activity last year (it's a pretty cool system)that's how I knew I weight 16 pounds less this time last year. I still don't know why/can't believe I did that. The thing is, is that it didn't "sneak" up on me-I was totally sabotaging myself, I would even secretly eat McD's double cheeseburgers (gross gross) and I HATE McD's and I DON"T EAT BEEF/PORK! W T F?!?! It wasn't like I was hungry, I just ate. I was unmotivated to workout. Man, I hope this nvr ever happens to me again I seriously lost my mind. And this extra weight is harder to come off too. I wish I could be analyzed to see why I did this to myself. If anyone has any theories PLZ let me know. http://confetti00.livejournal.com/991.html public 0 http://confetti00.livejournal.com/553.html Wed, 15 Feb 2006 02:04:50 GMT http://confetti00.livejournal.com/553.html I'm too embarrassed to say what I weigh. I looked in some archives and I was 16lbs lighter this time last year. WTF! I NEVER thought I would let myself go this much. Lately I've been eating 1000 calories or less and getting some good exercise, but I need to restrict more than that. I've lost 7lbs in 3 weeks-that sux. My goal is 10lbs in the next 4 weeks. I HAVE to do this, I don't even feel sexual because I'm so fat. Today I had 828 calories. http://confetti00.livejournal.com/553.html public 0